once again

my heart...
it broke again...
it's not black ice..
it's glass..
breakable by a strand of hair...

truly...
seriously...
secretly...
i wana tell him...
but... i cant bring myself
to do so....
she knows she's already
attached....
yet she does this to him...

no guy ever gives me a
chance to love them like
i really can...
they dont seem to care
or want to know...
idiots..
maybe i should be through
with guys..
except A..:)
now there's someone i
can love..

i cant really see her
being able to love as much
as i can and will...

but of course..
she's gorgeous ain it...
that's the reason..
stupid sister..
made me look like a FOOL!!
ergh! I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!
she caused all this!
now she's just shit to me
DAMN it.....

yeah, sure..
she's a whole lot prettier..
"hotter"
"sexier"
"beautiful-er"
than i will ever be...
huh..
rub it in then..
i dont care..
wait..
i do care..
it will hurt me even more..
she hurt me real bad..
she cut me deep man..
real deep..
which time will never heal..
i'll remember it..
i'll remember this forever...

ahhh...
im so hurt...
she always does stupid things...
i told her no..
i said NO..
but nooo, she took the comp and
put me on screen...
made me look like a fool..
now it's too late..
you cant change the past..
but you can shape the future..

but he wont change his mind..
he like the msn her..
he saw me at my worst..
and it's all nurul's fault..
it's all her fault..
stupid girl..
stupid stupid STUPID girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate her...

and i dont believe you shorty..
sure..
think i didnt see you shake your head..
when your BESTEST friend said if
you were happy with the pairing...
whatever..

people,
i hold grudges..
i can hold them pretty long..
very long..
you make me very pissed..
there is a 0.000000000000001%
chance i will give you a chance..

i wana tell you im heart broken..
but i'll spoil everyone's mood...
i wouldn't want to do that to
people i don't know..
especially those i dont know yet..
don't want to give a bad
impression...

im really heart broken dude..
you cant see that...
i guess so...

ok..
i hope you saw that dude...
i wont tell her.. coz ...
i just wont.. she'll..
i dont know..
i just wont tell her...
but if she does see this..
then good for her..
alright..
i think that's all ive got to say..
if i do have more..
i'll write more...
all dedicated to you..
alright..

im truly heart broken...