love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt.. haha

i met this new guy..
my sis found him cute.. FIRST..
even though i kinda saw him first...
haha..
it's my own fault.=)
ok.. so here's what i wrote earlier today.. hehe

[god, he breaks my heart..[but in a good way]
Every time he smiles...
coz he's in california, maybe..
or the feeling of
im-sure-it's-hard-for-him-to-be-mine...
but sometimes the question could be
if I WANT HIM TO BE MINE...
wtheck...
of course i want him to be mine=]
[hah, i wish..(:]
haha...
his smile makes me melt:)
but he's on the other side of the world:(
if i stayed in america, i'd be closer to him
and my fav stars:)

[especially jared<3]
he does break my heart...
just thinking about him kinda hurt...
sometimes a lot..
love probably isn't there...
but i do really like him..
haha, coz he's cute and really hot...=]
he is breaking my heart....
ouch..
maybe i do love him..
but not as strongly as i want it to be...
he might just be another passing crush...
just like all the three guys...]

haha.. ok..
it does hurt...
real bad..
i could cry but...
i dont know what my sis will think...
i mean..
nevermind..
IF THE GUY ISN'T INTERESTED,
HE ISN'T INTERESTED....
YOU'RE NOT AS GOOD-LOOKING
AS YOU'RE SISTER..
I MEAN LOOK AT THE NUMBER OF
FRIENDS SHE HAS..
I MEAN LET'S NOT EVEN GO LOOK
AT THE NUMBER OF EXs SHE HAS...
JUST BY LOOKING AT THE NUMBER OF
GUY-FRIENDS SHE HAS...

I MEAN, YEAH..
*SIGHS*
WHATEVER WILL I DO......